I just need to write this to let off some steam about what has been happening to me the past 6 months...








So lets see where to begin...?


Well about 6 months ago I started to have a medical problem which basically makes me have to piss a shit load more than required because the irritation can be unbearable if I don't use the restroom for more than 15-60 mins depending on where I am. As you can probably tell something like this can make life a little more complicated than it needs to be. To make matters worse I can't play my cello in the orchestra because the vibrations make it hard to play a whole song. I feel like I'm letting down my teacher because I chose not to play at our contest today. It also figures the year our orchestra is going to be the honors orchestra for All State this year and I probably wont go because I'll probably still have this stigma.

All the medicine I've tried haven't really worked at all; I even got a Cystoscopy to see whats the matter with me. They found some things that may be causing my problem but I haven't been cured yet. I'm now on an antibiotic and if that doesn't work I may be put on Anti Anxiety medicine to see if that works.

I fear I'll have to live with this shit for the rest of my life if they can't figure what wrong with me, it makes me want to cry. So much for senior year being the best year of high school.

:: BONUS RANT ::
Tonight I finally got a spark of inspiration to draw again, However when I put pencil to paper I couldn't draw what I had envisioned. Everything I draw is so unproportional and just wrong and it frustrates me. This is kinda what sent me over the edge to write this whole rant.
:: END BONUS RANT ::






I apologize if you found out a bit more than you wanted to know about me, I just really needed to get this out...